用浪漫去款待 這個殘酷時代

❦ I have started learning Taiwanese, which is a Chinese "dialect" that's actually a completely different language; they're probably as related as, hmm, English and German? Of course since all the printed materials I can find are actually written in Mandarin, the similarities here add another level of oh god why am I doing this to me why.

❦ It is pretty much impossible to describe in words the immense depths of my hate for Chinese calligraphy (書法). Seriously it's fucking awful and I have to take it until next July.

❦ I literally get up at around six every morning to study Chinese for about five hours before I have to go anywhere. I'm also probably going to see if I can add an additional two Chinese classes a week to my admittedly not very busy schedule, but that'll put me up to, hmm, sixteen hours of Chinese instruction a week? If I don't start seeing some serious progress soon I'm pretty sure it means I'm an idiot and this is hopeless.

❦ Not gonna lie, most of the time I think that I'm an idiot and this is hopeless.