用浪漫去款待 這個殘酷時代

[highways]

❦ I have started learning Taiwanese, which is a Chinese "dialect" that's actually a completely different language; they're probably as related as, hmm, English and German? Of course since all the printed materials I can find are actually written in Mandarin, the similarities here add another level of oh god why am I doing this to me why.

❦ It is pretty much impossible to describe in words the immense depths of my hate for Chinese calligraphy (書法). Seriously it's fucking awful and I have to take it until next July.

❦ I literally get up at around six every morning to study Chinese for about five hours before I have to go anywhere. I'm also probably going to see if I can add an additional two Chinese classes a week to my admittedly not very busy schedule, but that'll put me up to, hmm, sixteen hours of Chinese instruction a week? If I don't start seeing some serious progress soon I'm pretty sure it means I'm an idiot and this is hopeless.

❦ Not gonna lie, most of the time I think that I'm an idiot and this is hopeless.

Comments

[unicorn]

DON'T THINK THAT :/

[jae]

Oh, man, you sound like me learning Dutch. SO MUCH.

I hope you are keeping a language diary, at least here, that forces you to look at all the progress you ARE making, to drive those demons from that last sentence away. I needed it all the time. Cut-and-paste stuff you write in Chinese in this journal (on private), at least. I promise you, you'll look at stuff you wrote a month ago and go: "wow, was I really that bad a month ago?"

-J

[thor]

oh god why am I doing this to me why

You must hate yourself!

... my hate for Chinese calligraphy...

Oh my god! Brittany is Chinese calligraphy!